Older men are more aware of their sins than younger men. Apparently age and experience in life temper youthful self-righteousness. So the older and more experienced I am, the more conscious I am of my desperate need for a Savior - and the more grateful I am that I have one.
Along with this phenomenon, I also see that the more emotionally and spiritually mature I become, the less I am able to embrace a victim role. (I wonder if it is like this for everyone else.)